Last night I was restless - I'm still suffering from a cold; I had no more chocolate left in the house; I couldn't go out dancing hence my miserable feeling, and I had not spoken to King because I didn't feel like it. I read some French and Italian Fashion magazine's; boiled eggs for my baby girl so we can decorate them for Easter and then I started to reflect on the last couple of weeks and my previous relationships.
I remembered the blog I had read from Anthony Miner: http://www.ifyoulikechocolateeatchocolate.blogspot.com
I remembered the blog I had read from Anthony Miner: http://www.ifyoulikechocolateeatchocolate.blogspot.com
You should check his blog out he has some substantial posts. To cut along story short. This chocolate rocked my world. It's maybe an overstatement however it added to my moments of reflection.
I decided to write the author of this blog a note. Hey, I was out of chocolate; felt miserable; why not bother another person with my misery [I'm teasing of course...]
This is what I wrote to him:
Hello: I've been reading your blog over and over again. Gosh, if any of what you wrote is true I fell into all the common traps...And I LOVE chocolate. lol. I want to ask you something.
Have you seen the movie "Two can play that game"? There's an pre- "Two can play that game" - Angry Asian Cookie and a post- "Two can play that game"- Angry Asian Cookie.
Pre: I was playing cool, not giving in on emotional needs although I had/have them. Did my own thing with my girls;watch sports; go to games without my BF. and so on. If a guy didn't like me or wandered to much according to my taste: so what??? - life moves on and so did I.
Post: What if I really like[d] a guy, why am I denying that I feel what I feel?
I want to respond the way I feel like responding, and if he doesn't like it f*** him. I move on. I always kept my own life; with a demanding job; a kid; my girls; see a movie by myself; write poetry; cook for friends; watch football with my male friends and so on.
When I read your blog, I can see the common "mistakes" I make/made, but Anthony what if that is who I am and what if I want to be authentic and real?
Why do I have to be a person I'm not, to attract a guy and keep him??
If that is the case, he won't be with me for me.... And if all what you wrote is true [and I do believe it, don't get me wrong.. ] A man isn't even worth "losing" the real me because at the end he'll cheat anyways....
Here's my question: If every man is a potential cheater and I believe your hypothesis, then why should a woman dance this dance to ultimately lose her dignity; her own self-respect; and him - for what? How can this attitude change be beneficial for a woman??? Is it a man's world???
Then s*** men ... !!!!!
Have you seen the movie "Two can play that game"? There's an pre- "Two can play that game" - Angry Asian Cookie and a post- "Two can play that game"- Angry Asian Cookie.
Pre: I was playing cool, not giving in on emotional needs although I had/have them. Did my own thing with my girls;watch sports; go to games without my BF. and so on. If a guy didn't like me or wandered to much according to my taste: so what??? - life moves on and so did I.
Post: What if I really like[d] a guy, why am I denying that I feel what I feel?
I want to respond the way I feel like responding, and if he doesn't like it f*** him. I move on. I always kept my own life; with a demanding job; a kid; my girls; see a movie by myself; write poetry; cook for friends; watch football with my male friends and so on.
When I read your blog, I can see the common "mistakes" I make/made, but Anthony what if that is who I am and what if I want to be authentic and real?
Why do I have to be a person I'm not, to attract a guy and keep him??
If that is the case, he won't be with me for me.... And if all what you wrote is true [and I do believe it, don't get me wrong.. ] A man isn't even worth "losing" the real me because at the end he'll cheat anyways....
Here's my question: If every man is a potential cheater and I believe your hypothesis, then why should a woman dance this dance to ultimately lose her dignity; her own self-respect; and him - for what? How can this attitude change be beneficial for a woman??? Is it a man's world???
Then s*** men ... !!!!!
I feel unfortunate that I'm not a promiscuous girl. I wish I was, I wish I could jump from one bed or man into the other but that's not me. Not because I don't enjoy sex 24/7 but I don't feel it is me and the right thing to do. I have been in my life with less men then I can count on one hand. Did I date and do I date: Oh, absolutely.
So Mr. ifyoulikechocolateeatchocolate hence my infatuation for this particular CA man with a list of admirers I would according to your genesis lose him because of my configuration? Hmm, I might as well drop it like it's hot. (btw you do look hot *smile*) Or is there a way to be me and still be happily ever after?
I'm definitely curious about his response and I think I'll buy his book when it's out. Meanwhile... I need chocolate... It's great that when I feel sick, I lose weight and I can eat chocolate. I'm off to the store and buy me some...
Hugzzz Dahlings,
angryasiancookie.in.dc@gmail.com
