Threats of Insanity

Last night GI JOE started to chat with me. I was hoping he moved on from our last conversation and that we could have a normal chit chat. This is a copy of our chat:


GI JOE: yeah so what are you up tooo
GI JOE: at home yet
Angry Asian Cookie: yes
GI JOE: you still haven’t hooked up the web cam for me
Angry Asian Cookie: I don't think that's a wise thing to do at this point GI JOE
Angry Asian Cookie: I'm currently preparing for my salsa class
Angry Asian Cookie: I'm substituting
GI JOE: when do I get a lesson
GI JOE: Im a sex ed teacher, first lesson is free
Angry Asian Cookie: hmm where is this going...
GI JOE: ;)
Angry Asian Cookie: ok
GI JOE: you have no idea what I'm want to do to you
GI JOE: when we meet, I can’t promise you what’s going to happen or what’s not gonna happen
Angry Asian Cookie: really oh so you believe we'll meet... how interesting
Angry Asian Cookie: fascinating
Angry Asian Cookie: I don't think so GI JOE
GI JOE: >:)
Angry Asian Cookie: I probably have to tell you this again, maybe you've missed it the last time we spoke - although I have a though time imagining that but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt.
GI JOE: ok
Angry Asian Cookie: I met a person via a friend from my brother
Angry Asian Cookie: and I like him a lot
GI JOE: ok
GI JOE: so
Angry Asian Cookie: does this ring a bell....
GI JOE: no, I can only remember that I want to marry you
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE ok you need to hear this again and I'll send a copy of this chat to your email. Please read carefully and focus.
Angry Asian Cookie: as I mentioned before never intended to fall in love
Angry Asian Cookie: but I am falling
GI JOE: but
Angry Asian Cookie:I like this individual
GI JOE: so what are you telling me
Angry Asian Cookie: I want to let you know that
Angry Asian Cookie: he's far away
GI JOE: you are telling me this for a reason
Angry Asian Cookie: yes I did that the last time we chatted too. Ok this is what happened. It will help you understand the dynamics - I hope. He came to town a couple of weeks ago
Angry Asian Cookie: and we started to talk
Angry Asian Cookie: nothing physical happened
GI JOE: so why didnt I fall into this category
Angry Asian Cookie: we understand each other
Angry Asian Cookie: ?
Angry Asian Cookie: what do you mean
Angry Asian Cookie: he was here for work
Angry Asian Cookie: and my brothers friend introduced me to him
Angry Asian Cookie: it wasn't planned or anything
GI JOE: so Im out of the picture now
GI JOE: so Im out of the picture now
GI JOE: so Im out of the picture now
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE read and listen first. I want to let you know what's going on and I want you to understand this and accept the facts.
GI JOE: you never answered the question
Angry Asian Cookie: we are talking
Angry Asian Cookie: him and I
GI JOE: but you like him. I never got that far
Angry Asian Cookie: no GI JOE you and I never got that far; we never met. That's why even a relationship is doubtful and marriage with you has never been a reality to me
GI JOE: so our marriage is off?
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE, I never had the intention to marry you as I have stated several times.
GI JOE: Why not
Angry Asian Cookie: for one: I have never met you. I don’t love you, I don’t know you
Angry Asian Cookie: I still don’t understand why you want to marry a person, you've never met or know. Totally we’ve been chatting maybe 8 times.. Now, every individual can tell you that’s no foundation for a relationship and certainly not a marriage.
Angry Asian Cookie: at least not in my world of reality
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE focus
Angry Asian Cookie:I do believe that in all honesty that there was not a realistic edge of reasoning
Angry Asian Cookie: as a person who cares about people in general, I wonder how you expected me to fall in love or marry you without even seen you.
Angry Asian Cookie: marriage cannot be taken lightly. It's not a decision you make from one day to another. As a person who cares about others I just wonder how you could have build such expectations
Angry Asian Cookie: from me to you. I believe you are probably a great person. But allow a woman [in this case not me] to get to know you better. The both of you need to know how you could make a relationship work, you cannot expect that to do after the fact of marriage
Angry Asian Cookie: it’s intriguing how your mind works. Fascinating at minimum.
Angry Asian Cookie: I hope you’ll be ok
Angry Asian Cookie: I hope you'll find what you are looking for.
GI JOE: I’m not going to stand here and watch you fall for another guy
GI JOE: I’m taking my leave and this is unacceptable
Angry Asian Cookie: Accept it and the sooner you will, the sooner your sanity will come back
GI JOE: you cannot marry anyone else
Angry Asian Cookie: Who said anything about marriage? Is there anything in between for you?? Pardon me? I said I won’t marry YOU. And I repeat what I already said before in our conversation last week. I didn’t say I marry someone else. I couldn't do that with no one at this point
GI JOE: you’re not marrying anyone else, I won’t accept it
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE get a grip. I'm done being polite and diplomatic. I’m ending this conversation. Face reality my dear and move on. I hope that you’ll talk with someone about this – a health care professional preferable a counselor. My best for you.
GI JOE: this is not over. You can’t end this.
Angry Asian Cookie: Goodbye.


This freaks the h*** out of me. I"m unsure if this is a threat or what I have to think. I know one thing though - I'm not communicating with this person ever again. This is insane.

Hugzzz Dahlings,


angryasiancookie.in.dc@gmail.com

I long to see you smile

So much has happened the last couple of days, and I didn't have the chance to blog about it but here we go.

GI Joe
Remember that I blogged about GI Joe? He and I finally had a chance to talk. I brought him the news that I don't want to marry him because I don't know him; don't love him and never met him. I also shared with him I met an individual that I start to develop feelings for.
I probably shouldn't have shared that last part. My thoughts were that this additional information might help to make GI Joe realize marriage to me is a loss cause. GI Joe started to demand questions why I preferred King as oppose to him [GI Joe]. Then he expressed that he thought it was unfair that he had such a disposition - he's in Iraq and King is here .....in CA. In response I tried to explain the dynamics between King and myself. Wrong stupid Bridget - he started to project it on himself. In my effort not to upset GI Joe too much I offered my platonic friendship, and told him that he probably is a great guy but not for me and I never met him.
A chat with GI Joe is always draining and I really didn't have the time or energy to go into too much details. Lucky for me my laptop crashed again

NoShow
Before I met Lion I was introduced to NoShow. I quickly had assessed NoShow, was a NoShow because every time we tried to schedule a date and he would not show up. In addition I found out he was still married but separated for eighth years but still slept with his wife. When we did met I couldn't overcome his physical appearance; his hygiene; his ghetto background; and his intellectual abilities. He wrote beautiful letters but to be honest I think he had downloaded them somewhere online because in real life his vocabulary didn't match his written skills. To cut a long story short, I wasn't interested. I told him that immediately and I offered a platonic friendship at maximum. He took that too literally and started to call me day and night. After a while he stopped calling but the last couple of days, he started his phone terror again. This time I blocked his number. Personally, I don't understand why a person would stalk another person who obviously made it clear she's not interested in you romantically.

Johns
I met Johns via a mutual friend. He is an older professional, very nice and distinguished, intelligent, but from my side there's no chemistry. We started talking about business and we met several of times with regards to that. He invited me a couple of times for a party and dance. We did have indepth conversation and he's a nice person but I'm falling for King that I made it clear that we can be friends and business partners but that's as far as I want him in my life. He's not accepting this fact. Why is it that men cannot handle a "no" or is it my naievity that men and women cannot be platonic if one has a crush on the other. Of course I have no intention to continue this friendship.

KING
Where do I even start...we have been text messaging, and talking by phone and people - I am falling for King. And I mean really falling and feeling this wonderful man. He has his own interests, hobbies and work but still shows enough interest in my life and is very supportive about whatever I undertake. Of course this works both ways. Our exchange is naughty; deep; sweet; funny and intellectual. We make each other smile, and when he's silent it's ok. I listen to him without he's saying one word. Last night he was excited about my dancing classes, and I was excited about his audition for a movie part. We shared dreams and goals, little and bigger things that have our interest. We had been on our call listening to our music and it was as if he was sitting next to me. Both of us trying to see who can visit who first. And you know what, I long to see him smile; hold his hand and be in his presence in real life again. If I can have one wish related to him and me, this would be my wish.

Gosh how will a long distance relationship work then again, I was already focused on relocation... maybe I should seriously consider CA.



Hugzzz Dahlings,


angryasiancookie.in.dc@gmail.com

Marry Me Angry Asian Cookie - The Edge Of Reasoning

GI Joe: Hee Baby, what’s up?
Angry Asian Cookie: Busy, but I’m doing well – how about yourself?
*GI Joe :Just checking how you are doing – I haven’t seen you online for a while. Angry Asian Cookie: I’ve been busy with work, commuting, and some other business related stuff.
*GI Joe: When I’m back in the US, are we still getting married??

Angry Asian Cookie: SILENCE Angry Asian
Cookie: SILENCE Angry Asian Cookie: SILENCE. Angry Asian
Cookie: SILENCE. Angry Asian Cookie: SILENCE.

GI Joe: Baby are you still there? Hello Hello Hello.. GI Joe hangs up the phone

Last year I joined myspace and I virtually met some great people. I love to read about individuals life’s and blurbs, I enjoy the pictures and the cute surveys. Once in a while you’re contacted by a person who seems to be interesting enough to have a conversation with. Sometimes after a few, some people would cut off any form of contact.
Now, there’s my problem. I’m not the kind of girl that what to hurt someone’s feelings because I realize that we all come from different places;that sphere of influence impacts our ability to communicate and related to others, and our expectations. . Some of us have the same style of communication, some not; some have realistic expectations, some not.

GI Joe is currently located in Iraq. He invited me to be his friend on MySpace, and I accepted the invitation after checking his profile. Cute picture, blunt and ambitious essays. We started to chat and after two chats, he asked me if I wanted to marry him. In the conversations I displayed my curiosity for his Edge of Reasoning. From his prospective you can start a relationship, and get married without knowing; loving, understanding; frequently have communication; [with] a person. I must say I was intrigued by his fascinating world of reality but it’s not mine.

Now I know that when you’re in Iraq, you’re exposed to so much crap. Unnecessary to say that it can impact you mind set, and psyche.

Have you seen the movie “American Dreamz” with Hugh Grant, Many Moore, and Chris Klein? Chris Klein plays the [former] boyfriend of the character played Mandy Moore. He joins the army, gets injured in Iraq and he lost his cool along the way and ends up blowing himself up with some other people. Ok watch the movie, and you’ll get my point.

GI Joe seems to be a kind person. But his reality, fiction and expectations are a bit off. Last year he posted a comment on MySpace that every one who is my friend or wants to be my friend should back off, because I’m his wife.
Again. I never met GI Joe. In one of our conversations he asked me my ring size, and I tried to make it clear that I’m unable to marry a person I never met or know. On page I found out he dead serious about this whole marriage thing – One of his lady friends helped him with finding a ring.

Dr H. [my brother] kicks my derriere many times, for the mere fact I’m too diplomatic, and empathetic. He claims that this is the main reason, he hired security to tally and tail me for my own protection. There were times I deliberately decided NOT to Date at all but that didn’t decrease approaches of [ crazy] men to get to know me better.

I guess the next time he calls, I’ll firmly bring the message his wedding bubble with me is off and never existed in my world. In addition I auditioned for runaway bride the Remake. I’ve should have nipped this issue n the b*** way back… I’m sleeping in the bed I made, and another lesson learned. Does anyone have a good escape plan/route handy???


Hugzzz Dahlings,

Angry Asian Cookie.

*GI Joe – Age 37

Smilies: * Persistant* Kind* Tough Cookie* Ambitious
Eyebrow Raisers: * Unstable GI*No Edge of Reasoning* Lives in Own World of Reality* Iraq Effected* Scary

Huggzz Dahlings,

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