I spoke with Camy, one of my closest friends [see my first post on this blog] We catched up and spoke abit about the recession in the US. He told me CA has a deficit of over 4 million, and then adviced me not to relocate to CA... I had to give it a thought. And when I did, my phone rang and my new acquaintance DD was on the other line. DD lives in LA and is person who can hold an engaging conversation; he's interesting; intelligent; creative; funny and has the talent to actually listen to me and my verbal diarrhea. Actually I like him, our conversations last for hours without getting bored. Why are the cutiest men, in CA???? He invited me to visit him in LA and I might do that to be honest with you.
When I spoke to King last night and we spoke about his movie career, it crossed my mind to introduce him to DD. I heard this little voice telling me; You play with fire but Aries girl here decided not to listen to her inner voice. King was interested in DD's background, and then asked me: Do you think he'll be jealous of me? And it put a little smile on my face.. I responded with: Of course he will darling, who wouldn't you're sooo sexy. Remember, a Leo needs the admiration and Aries love to stroke a Leo's ego and purrr. He started to laugh out loud and my heart was jumping up and down again. He has a wonderful smile. After we hang up, I felt so good about our conversation, First and foremost because he, and I are so much on the same page regarding relationships. It's amazing everytime again..We're both not in a rush but at the same time we are..
This morning I text DD because he crossed my mind, and it was a bit odd because I almost felt as if I was cheating on King. He and King do have much commodities occupation wise, and creative aspects; their passions and so on. And DD is a good listener. Am I playing with fire? I know King would not be amused if I would have intense conversations with DD. Still, I like DD and to me there's nothing wrong with that.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Monday, March 31, 2008
Jealousy
Saturday, March 29, 2008
To Be or Not to Be
King and I talked last night and this morning. Although I have been chatting with a few new acquaintances, he manages to keep me intrigued by sharing bits and pieces of what's going on in his life. I still haven't figured out how, and if I want to deal with the madness of his professional and personal life. I'm flying to Milan but will be back next week. Ton's Spirit is leaving soon thus I do want to be close to him [and his boyfriend] when his Sunset arrives. It appears as if King understand that it's key for me to fly to Milan, but the underlying feeling is that he believes I should fly to CA and be with him prior to my Milan trip. For me it's impossible to accommodate his wish. As much as I desire to be with him; spend time with him-the reality is that I have Vlindertje; and other immediate issues requiring my attention. Of all people in the whole wide world, I'm falling for a guy who momentarily lives thousands of miles away. Are we both solid enough to-for starters-, maintain a long distance relationship?
I try not to call him each day or each moment he's crossing my mind. With every moment of joy, or a new experience, warm rain falling on my face; music that lift's my heart up, or when I receive a text from him- I want to tell him how much he means to me, and how hearing his voice makes me smile; how much I long to share every little accomplishment and moments of joy with him. I hope one day I can tell him how the thought of his hands holding the curves of my waist make me shiver; how my thoughts of him are nourishing the curves of my mind, and how he inspires me to dream, write and love again. Oh, Silly Bridget Jones.. Am I soliciting for a heartache?
I don't want to hold back, but I don't want to smother him with my emotions and feelings either. Why do we have to think about feelings and the consequences of our expressions for the appropriate "launching" of feelings and emotions? What about spontaneity? People who are close to me, are surprised how cautious I am with King. This, normally fiery and blunt Angry Asian Cookie, seems to be tamed by the King. Or is it my subconsciousness telling me: If he's the real deal - this only happens once in a life time - Fragile Caution handle with care ....
Do you guys have any idea how hard this is for a girl with Aries in Venus; Sun;Mercury; and Saturn??!! To Be or Not to Be that's the question?
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Thursday, March 27, 2008
The Heat is On
Did you notice the change of weather? Spring is in the Air! Spring is my favorite season for several reasons: the trees are blossoming; the air is filled with the sweet fragrance of the wild flowers and the sun; and people smile more often.
On occasion I wonder if the change of seasons make men's hormones change gears along with the change of seasons. For example:
7:35 AM
1. Walking down the street, a man asked me how I'm doing; I respond friendly and another business card is provided with a request if I want to join the individual for dinner. I decline and the individual still insist on taking me out for dinner. I refused again; the individual starts to sing me a song and embarrass me in front of the public. I walk into the closest breakfast bar and lock myself up until the coast is clear.
8:14 AM
On the phone with associate whom I have known for several years without ever one hint of romantic expressions. Individual starts whisper that he woke up thinking of me and was wondering if he could join me to Paris next time and have a romantic walk along the Seine.
Luckily for me after reminding him that I never mix professional and personal life, he stops hinting about an romantic rendezvous and gets grumpy.
10:22 AM
Receive an email message from an individual I haven't spoken with for a year. He asked me if we can catch up soon. In addition he hopes I'm still available. Individual is normally very guarded...
12: 09 PM
Start Belly Dance Work out after eating my salade. King sent text, telling me that today I'm the sweetest mama and his princess. He remembers how his hands fits the curves of my waist and how his thoughts of me curves his mind. King is very expressive but not that explicit via text. I wonder what triggered him to sent me the text. I did like it!
3:54 PM
Friend sent me a raunchy ecard via Facebook with two people having intercourse on top of two M&M letting me know he was thinking to try that out with his girlfriend, asking me for advise regarding the temperature in the house and the melting point of M&M's. He continues into the details, which made me decide to delete the post
4:11 PM
Dr. H. calls, asking me if I can fly to NY to cheer up one of his Ivy League buddies who needs a hot woman on his arms for a social function since his wife suffers from a diagnosed social disorder of verbal diarrhea hence his inability of bringing her to this occasion. After 30 minutes of listening how terrible the budd's life is, I tell my brother I will give Ivy League a call. I call Ivy League and he picks up the phone - we casually talk before I hit the chaperon issue when he starts crying. His blurbs sound like: cold nights... she only wants to talk... lonely... talks about negatively about his parents and their sex life in public ... how he gets a h.... even when he thinks of his..... mother... Ok, that's the moment I drop the phone out of my hands and ask him if he could repeat himself. Yes, he tells me that he even fantasize about his mom.... Ivy League tells me, I don't have to worry about a dress; f I could wear one of his mom's favorite dresses to the Gala ball that night. This is the point where I tell him we're off. I wonder if the wife knows about the Oedipus complex. I call my brother and inform him about my decision. He's in shock.
6:30 PM
Call from the person who by accident received my text with personal picture that was intended to hit King's mail box. He asks me if I would consider to have drink with him, because it's such a wonderful evening. I not only told him no, I asked him not to call me again. Gosh, major embarrassment.
7:00 PM
Pick up Vlindertje from dance class, one of the dad's casually talks with me and then asks if we can do a play date next week in Olive and Garden. I frown and tell him that's not a place where children can play and have fun. He agrees and says that the playdate would be for him and me.....
8:00 PM Back home from work out. After Vlindertje has gone to bed, I take a bath and reflect on my day and wonder.... what was going on with all these men today????????? Was the heat on???????? Is it the Spring that impacts the hormones??? Although Spring is my favorite season, I do hope this will not continue all Spring.
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Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Monday, March 24, 2008
My Personality Type is ENJF
I did the Myers-Briggs test awhile ago, and I'm sharing the results ENJF.
The Visionary Idealists called Teachers are abstract in their thought and speech, cooperative in their style of achieving goals, and directive and extroverted in their interpersonal relations.
Learning in the young has to be beckoned forth, teased out from its hiding place, or, as suggested by the word "education," it has to be "educed." by an individual with educative capabilities. Such a one is the eNFj, thus rightly called the educative mentor or Teacher for short. The Teacher is especially capable of educing or calling forth those inner potentials each learner possesses. Even as children the Teachers may attract a gathering of other children ready to follow their lead in play or work. And they lead without seeming to do so.
Teachers expect the very best of those around them, and this expectation, usually expressed as enthusiastic encouragement, motivates action in others and the desire to live up to their expectations. Teachers have the charming characteristic of taking for granted that their expectations will be met, their implicit commands obeyed, never doubting that people will want to do what they suggest. And, more often than not, people do, because this type has extraordinary charisma.
The Teachers are found in no more than 2 or 3 percent of the population. They like to have things settled and arranged. They prefer to plan both work and social engagements ahead of time and tend to be absolutely reliable in honoring these commitments. At the same time, Teachers are very much at home in complex situations which require the juggling of much data with little pre-planning. An experienced Teacher group leader can dream up, effortlessly, and almost endlessly, activities for groups to engage in, and stimulating roles for members of the group to play. In some Teachers, inspired by the responsiveness of their students or followers, this can amount to genius which other types find hard to emulate. Such ability to preside without planning reminds us somewhat of an Provider, but the latter acts more as a master of ceremonies than as a leader of groups.
Providers are natural hosts and hostesses, making sure that each guest is well looked after at social gatherings, or that the right things are expressed on traditional occasions, such as weddings, funerals, graduations, and the like. In much the same way, Teachers value harmonious human relations about all else, can handle people with charm and concern, and are usually popular wherever they are. But Teachers are not so much social as educational leaders, interested primarily in the personal growth and development of others, and less in attending to their social needs.
Mikhail Gorbachev, Oprah Winfrey, Pope John Paul II, Ralph Nader, John Wooden, and Margaret Mead are examples of Teacher Visionary Idealists.
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Don Lewis about DMXs Pistol .....
Don Lewis to Angryasiancookie
Took his M-F'in Guns!!???
That sucks.
At last. A 'coming together' between a black New Jersey urban rapper and a white Idaho rural blogger.
Let the dialog begin.
Angryasiancookie:
I'll be there as a secondant. of course I have to measure all the heavy machinery first......
*smile*
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Miles on DMX: What the F*** is a Barack
interest in being one, or in not being one.So, without disclaimers people begin looking up to them, and forming ideas that follow, theirs.But ... these are not the people to follow. 
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DMX : What the F**K is a Barack??!!!!
I cannot stop laughing. This article is tooo funny....
This is a copy of the interview taken from http://www.xxlmag.com/online/?p=20332
DMX: 'What the F**k is a Barack?!
'10 votes ? by Kev Kharas Artists:
DMXWords: Kev Kharas Posted: 19 Mar '08, 15:43
It's been a while since we dropped in on DMX… what's he up to now, we ask ourselves, on seeing this thread pop up over on the left-hand side of our front page?
For anyone who doesn't read the boards, the rapper was interviewed by XXLMag.com last Friday (14 Mar) on various subjects – among them the continuing presidential race in the US.
Before that though, XXL asked DMX about what he's been doing since the release of his last new studio album Year of the Dog… Again in 2006.
"Life," replied the Baltimore-born rapper, real name Earl Simmons; "I been up to that. It's been crazy.
Fuckin' police keep on fuckin' raiding my house and shit for nothing. Sounds pretty shady, Earl. Really, for nothing? "They took all my fuckin' guns." That'll be the guns, then. "All they did is take is take my guns. All they fuckin' do is fuck my house up and take my guns. That's all they did. Straight robbed me—that's what they did."
On, to the presidential race and the very real possibility that a black man may be elected to run what's probably still the world's most powerful country for the first time, like, ever 'n' shit.
While DrownedinSound isn't suggesting that DMX has to have an opinion of any kind on the sole basis that he too is a black male, you'd expect the man to at least know the names of the prospective candidates. Surely? No? OK.
Again, the following exchange is taken straight from the article at XXLMag.com.
- - - Are you following the presidential race?
Not at all.
You're not?
You know there's a Black guy running, Barack Obama and then there's Hillary Clinton.
His name is Barack?!
Barack Obama, yeah.
Barack?! Barack. What the fuck is a Barack?! Barack Obama. Where he from, Africa?
Yeah, his dad is from Kenya.
Barack Obama? Yeah.
What the fuck?! That ain't no fuckin' name, yo. That ain't that nigga's name. You can't be serious. Barack Obama. Get the fuck outta here.
You're telling me you haven't heard about him before.
I ain't really paying much attention. I mean, it's pretty big if a Black… Wow, Barack! The nigga's name is Barack. Barack? Nigga named Barack Obama. What the fuck, man?! Is he serious? That ain't his fuckin' name. Ima tell this nigga when I see him, "Stop that bullshit. Stop that bullshit" [laughs] "That ain't your fuckin' name." Your momma ain't name you no damn Barack.
So you're not following the race. You can't vote right?
Nope.
Is that why you're not following it?
No, because it's just—it doesn't matter. They're gonna do what they're gonna do. It doesn't really make a difference. These are the last years. But it would be pretty big if we had a first Black president. That would be huge. I mean, I guess…. What, they gon' give a dog a bone? There you go. Ooh, we have a Black president now. They should've done that shit a long time ago, we wouldn't be in the fuckin' position we in now. With world war coming up right now.
They done fucked this shit up then give it to the Black people, 'Here you take it. Take my mess.'
- - - DMX plans to release a pair of new albums later this year, both Walk With Me Now and You'll Fly With Me Later will arrive through Bodog Music.
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
Comment on my post from the author
The author wrote me back, You can read his response. I think we should all buy his book. Sometimes the truth is hard and painful, but I appreciate the truth above everything else [can you hear the Aries girl talking ...]
Comment on my previous blog post: http://angryasiancookie.blogspot.com/search/label/Chocolate
Thank you for writing I appreciate the conversation.
If I understand your questions, you want to know how come you can’t be yourself in a relationship or how can you be your authentic self in a relationship, especially when you have feeling. In the first part you actually answered your own question.“I feel unfortunate that I'm not a promiscuous girl. I wish I was, I wish I could jump from one bed or man into the other but that's not me. Not because I don't enjoy sex 24/7 but I don't feel it is me and the right thing to do. I have been in my life with less men then I can count on one hand Did I date and do I date”
Most women are like you they aren’t interest or don’t have the internal need to have multi sexual partners; whereas men instinctively do. We can analyze it 100 different ways. And at the end of the day men are men with basic needs and women are women. Both will behave based on their genetic makeup, which was encoded when caveman existed. Modern men behave are a new concept. The other point is that you being a mom and a female know what it feels like to love someone or something unconditionally.
The only person you can love unconditionally is your child and they are the only person or people you ever really know. You’ll only know your child until about the age of 13 – at which time they begin to have their own lives and secrets. Loving your child or a pet is different than loving a man… The difference being…
1. You don’t know the man you are with. And he doesn’t know you. I guarantee you both have secret that you’ll never share with each other. Even if the secret is something that you live out in your head, (maybe you want a threesome – maybe you want to be rich – maybe it’s a childhood experience that you would like to forget) whatever it is or whatever you want or need you aren’t going to share with you partner – for whatever reason.
2. We are all evidence of being conditioned by society. We are influenced by our parents, schools, friends, media, church etc. As a result we are insecure, live in fear, pain, doubt etc. So are the men you are dating are influenced and you have to know how to deal with these influences. I get it you don’t want to play game and that you want to love someone unconditionally.
The question is how can you love someone unconditionally who is conditioned? When you go to work do you show up as your authentic self? When you don’t want to be bothered do you tell your boss… f*** off? When you go to your kid’s PTA, school meeting or play dates do you show up as your authentic self? No we all play the game to get the job done. We all put on the happy face at work. If we don’t we all be fired etc. Do you think Oprah, David Letterman, Leno likes every guest!!!!
When children come into the world they arrive as their authentic selves, until we as parent stomp that idea. Kids in school can’t be their authentic selves because we encourage them with unrealistic expectation. For example – most parents have the same grade objective which is for their kids to get straight A’s. I’ve never heard a parent say get straight B’s or mix it up with A’s B’s or C’s. Have you? When we tell our kids to get straight A’s aren’t we teaching our kids to be their authentic selves we are teaching them to play a game. Not all kids love history or math equally. Your child might love math, therefore get an A.
The men you are or have dated were at one time in grade school they too were told to get straight A’s. The point is we are all conditioned by our influences. Unfortunately we can’t walk through life being our authentic selves 100% of the time and in 100% situations; relationships are one of those area. Ironically, when a man shows up being his authentic self and adores you unconditionally you aren’t interested. You’ll call him boring or needy. Very few people want someone to drown them in unconditional love and attention. We all like the chase. I hope this makes sense…
Written by the author of http://www.ifyoulikechocolateeatchocolate.blogspot.com
It does make sense but does it mean that even if we say or feel we want to be loved unconditionally that we don't really grasp the consequences of unconditional love? If I read the author's response correctly we want to be chased and not smothered. I like to be chased but ultimately I want unconditional love from a masculine man. I desire a man who still loves his football, has his boys night out, do his own things but loves me unconditional. Roooaaar, men are so complicated uhhhh. I agree with the author regarding the unconditional love for my child and the conditions and dynamics of our society. A great book is written about that topic: the Monster convenant by Carolien Roodvoets. Everyone who is interested in these dynamics and how it defines our personality and relationships, it is a must to read!
Meanwhile, I'm taking of my bunny suit and go out again for a walk. I'll join the dogs in the park barking because I still sound like dog or a smokin' sailor uhhhhHugzzz Dahlings,
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Poetry - Suave
Sweetest Love, Honey Love, Suave Love
No more sense of sensing the foregone now I've met your spirit
I cannot desist your sweet soft sound, that sends me high to the finest stellar in my sky.
I fall apart, falling deep and hard, for you my love - for you
Your spirit and soul took over control so fast as a beam of lightning, almost frightening
Your consciences, keep me wide awake as an addict for the sweetest Chardonnay,
so suave
Gently I drink, lip you as liquid into me
Your velvet thoughts nourish, and remain deep within
Just like a waterfall you're there around it all
You stare at me from everywhere you stare
Now I shine in my bare naked emotions
it makes me fall, falling deep and elusive
Spin, Spinning until I twine into the conceiving of your dreams
Alluring and seductively I soar on the air you breathe
Imagine our love making, my moonlight, gleam as a beacon in the night
Float on the waves of suave passions now elude, elude and never be out of my sight
copyright © lotus tresor marie 2008
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Chocolate Rocks!
I remembered the blog I had read from Anthony Miner: http://www.ifyoulikechocolateeatchocolate.blogspot.com
You should check his blog out he has some substantial posts. To cut along story short. This chocolate rocked my world. It's maybe an overstatement however it added to my moments of reflection.
I decided to write the author of this blog a note. Hey, I was out of chocolate; felt miserable; why not bother another person with my misery [I'm teasing of course...]
This is what I wrote to him:
Have you seen the movie "Two can play that game"? There's an pre- "Two can play that game" - Angry Asian Cookie and a post- "Two can play that game"- Angry Asian Cookie.
Pre: I was playing cool, not giving in on emotional needs although I had/have them. Did my own thing with my girls;watch sports; go to games without my BF. and so on. If a guy didn't like me or wandered to much according to my taste: so what??? - life moves on and so did I.
Post: What if I really like[d] a guy, why am I denying that I feel what I feel?
I want to respond the way I feel like responding, and if he doesn't like it f*** him. I move on. I always kept my own life; with a demanding job; a kid; my girls; see a movie by myself; write poetry; cook for friends; watch football with my male friends and so on.
When I read your blog, I can see the common "mistakes" I make/made, but Anthony what if that is who I am and what if I want to be authentic and real?
Why do I have to be a person I'm not, to attract a guy and keep him??
If that is the case, he won't be with me for me.... And if all what you wrote is true [and I do believe it, don't get me wrong.. ] A man isn't even worth "losing" the real me because at the end he'll cheat anyways....
Here's my question: If every man is a potential cheater and I believe your hypothesis, then why should a woman dance this dance to ultimately lose her dignity; her own self-respect; and him - for what? How can this attitude change be beneficial for a woman??? Is it a man's world???
Then s*** men ... !!!!!
I feel unfortunate that I'm not a promiscuous girl. I wish I was, I wish I could jump from one bed or man into the other but that's not me. Not because I don't enjoy sex 24/7 but I don't feel it is me and the right thing to do. I have been in my life with less men then I can count on one hand. Did I date and do I date: Oh, absolutely.
So Mr. ifyoulikechocolateeatchocolate hence my infatuation for this particular CA man with a list of admirers I would according to your genesis lose him because of my configuration? Hmm, I might as well drop it like it's hot. (btw you do look hot *smile*) Or is there a way to be me and still be happily ever after?
I'm definitely curious about his response and I think I'll buy his book when it's out. Meanwhile... I need chocolate... It's great that when I feel sick, I lose weight and I can eat chocolate. I'm off to the store and buy me some...
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
A Perfect Day - Smile
8:15 Wake up to hugs and kisses.
8:30 Weigh 5 lbs. lighter than yesterday.
8:45 Breakfast in bed, fresh squeezed orange juice and croissants.
9:15 Soothing hot bath with fragrant lilac bath oil.
10:00 Light workout at club with handsome, funny personal trainer.
10:30 Facial, manicure, shampoo, and comb out.
12:00 Lunch with best friend at an outdoor cafe.
12:45 Notice ex-boyfriend's wife, she has gained 30 lbs..
1:00 Shopping with friends.
4:00 A dozen roses delivered by florist. Card is from a secret admirer.
4:15 Light workout at club followed by a gentle massage
5:30 Pick outfit for dinner. Primp before mirror.
7:30 Candlelight dinner for two followed by dancing.
10:00 Hot shower. Alone.
10:30 Make love.
11:00 Pillow talk, light touching and cuddling. 1
1:15 Fall asleep in his big, strong arms.
PERFECT DAY FOR A MAN:
6:00 Alarm.
6:15 Blowjob.
6:30 Massive dump while reading the sports section.
7:00 Breakfast. Filet Mignon, eggs, toast and coffee.
7:30 Limo arrives.
7:45 Bloody Mary en route to airport.
8:15 Private jet to Augusta, Georgia.
9:30 Limo to Augusta National Golf Club.
9:45 Play front nine at Augusta, finish 2 under par.
11:45 Lunch. 2 dozen oysters on the half shell. 3 Heinekens.
12:15 Blowjob.
12:30 Play back nine at Augusta, finish 4 under par.
2:15 Limo back to airport. Drink 2 Bombay martinis.
2:30 Private jet to Nassau, Bahamas. Nap.
3:15 Late afternoon fishing excursion with topless female crew.
4:30 Catch world record light tackle marlin-1249 lbs.
5:00 Jet back home. En route, get massage from naked supermodel.
7:00 Watch CNN Newsflash. Bush resigns.
7:30 Dinner. Lobster appetizers, 1963 Dom Perignon, 20 Oz. New York strip.
9:00 Relax after dinner with 1789 Augler Cognac and Cohiba Cuban cigar.
10:00 Have sex with two 18 year old nymphomaniacs.
11:00 Massage and Jacuzzi.
11:45 Go to bed.
11:50 Let loose a 12 second, 4 octave fart. Watch the dog leave the room.
11:55 Laugh yourself to sleep.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Friendship
I have been working on this post for a while before I decide to post it today. My friends from Paris and Amsterdam visited me and it was great to see them again. They brought me Giovanna Guglielmi and Maria Barros (Italian and Spanish designers), spring collection items. I hooked up one of my girls with my realtor a couple of weeks ago and they seem to enjoy each other's company. Although I was happy to see my girls, I was also a little bit annoyed by the fact that the girl who I hooked up with my realtor apparently came to DC a couple of days ago and only came for a crash visit with me.
She and I have been friends since kindergarten. And to me, my friendships with my home girls are more important then a guy. Now, you spend five days with my realtor without given me a call you're in town, and when you do visit me you stay for 30 minutes.. COME ON....
Then in addition to this, I felt a little bit upset about King. Well not King himself but issues that involved him. We're both busy people and that's a good thing. We talk intensively about various subjects and our conversations are of substance. He's in CA and I'm in DC and we knew there would be a time were it would be hard for us to deal with the long distance part of our developing friendship. I made it clear to him that I'm only focusing on him. Again I'm an 101 man-woman person, in fact I told several of my admirers about King. Maybe a little bit premature but, I want to be honest and clear about where I stand and what I want. Nobody else has my full attention and devotion. Today I had left him a note on his website. A sweet note from me to him to let him know I was thinking of him. And I posted it anonymous but with words he and I only know. Then all over the sudden I saw that some of his fans had left him messages such as:
Oh what a nice comment you made about the pictures I've sent you. Oh, we should hook up some time.. call me.. I miss you.
There were a couple of those messages and I'm sure the pics he received were x rated - I'm not a possessive person, or very insecure. I only hope he's as clear about his feelings for me as I am about my feelings for him. It doesn't leave me a good feeling if he would continue to "feed" certain behavior while he and I are developing our friendship. Maybe men think differently, I don't know. I really don't. Bottom line is that I'm a bit sensitive this week. Friendship, loyalty and honesty are so important to me. Ultimately I want King to be my best friend, but that takes time. We do need to spend time together physically, but I also have a life with friends, aspirations, a friend who's dying, my Vlindertje, my relocation, a new career.. I cannot just drop that for him although he would like to have me in CA yesterday. Do I trust him, especially considering his position, his profession and so on. Yes, so far I do. Am I prepared [if we develop our friendship into a relationship] to deal with adoring fans on a daily basis? I'm not sure if I want/can deal with that.
Normally as an Aries, I would take action before I think. However, I've hit my head too many times that way. So this post is b/c letter to myself. This week I had some great moments with King; extremely spiritual and bonding, let me focus on that. He wants me to be there with him, that counts as well. So maybe I should brush this feeling off my shoulders. Or not...And what exactly is it that I feel...? It is most of all discomfort, I believe. Yes, that's the word. Discomfort in a developing friendship. How odd..
To be continued.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Friday, March 21, 2008
Power outage + Making Babies
Last night my community suffered from a power outage. I was in the middle of a story when it happened. My optimistic approach on situation as this is to create an opportunity to conduct activities different from the from the usual. Vlindertje was already in bed, when this occurred. I decided to find all the candles in the house; turn on some mood music and add an incense to fill the room with an sweet scent to make it even better.
I text King to share this moment. To be honest I wished he was there. Then I fooled around by referring to the facts that power outage could stimulate people into making babies. I seductively invited him to make a baby with me which is hard to do considering the fact he was CA sitting on a bench writing his screen play; watching the sea and I'm in DC. He then responded that he would love to make a baby with me and that our baby would be so beautiful and loved by the both of us.
Did I tell you that I'm silent when he talks, and when he says nothing at all manages to say it the best as well... I was silent. so silent and my heart was filled with joy. In his voice I could hear how serious he was about us having a baby. After a few, we started to kick around again and I finally went back to sleep ....to wake up in the middle of the night when every light turned on again...
According to a science article on ABC the largest blackout in history, the one of August 14, 2003, that affected some 50 million people in the northeast of the USA, and parts of Canada and the babies conceived were tremendous.
Of course I still believe that we should practise and practise before we actually hit a pot of gold....
a child of King and me would look like this...
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Thursday, March 20, 2008
chicken soup
The last couple of days I've been working hard with my headhunter despite the fact I felt sad about Ton. Yesterday I visited a potential client downtown DC, and got caught up in the middle of a demonstration against the war in Iraq. When I was younger in Amsterdam, I have seen some demonstrations. The Netherlands, country of liberty and freedom of speech .. there's always a reason to find for a demonstration or strike. Our country is known for it's Union climate; all of our major industries and even the government have unified labor and contract agreements sealed with the Unions. And If we feel bad, I guess we demonstrate or strike. When I was working for a short period of time in the UK, I was surprised about the charming way of settling things when there would be a problem arising; Tea. Yes, my de
arest TEA.
Over a cup of tea many arguments and conflicts are settled. Amazing isn't it?? I feel bad about Ton;I lost my voice for a day after my normal soft spoken voice was violated when I screamed out loud for hours after I heard about Ton; and as a result I cough and sound as sick old dog. King has been working on his novel, and a screen play so we've been texting instead of talking. As I mentioned before he wants to spend time with me, but I cannot leave to CA until I've seen Ton and wrap things up here. So what is the best thing this Angry Asian Cookie can do, to make herself feel better?
Yes, chicken soup, I don't know why but in my family we made chicken soup and cake when we feel abit under the weather. As if everything could be resolved with cake and chicken soup. Nowadays I think the chicken soup does cure flu, or colds... There's nothing natural about chicken anymore. There's is a battery antibiotics stock in each chicken.. so fresh made chicken soup equals free antibiotics over the counter for the flu, a cold and in my case my cough and my blues....And the cake.. of course it must be chocolate cake... no frosting hmmmmm
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Monday, March 17, 2008
Losing you
At least once a day I receive one phone call from my friends, or relatives in Europe. What amazed me when I first came here, I was surprised that visiting family or even keeping in touch with family and friends was a holiday matter as oppose to a day to day activity. I guess living in Europe where distance is not an issue provides the opportunity to stay in touch with family and friends more frequently.
Today my friend Ton gave me a buzz and that totally surprised me. Back in the day, Ton and I traveled together for business and pleasure. My mother and friends brought me in touch with Ton. Ton was in need of a personal life coach;Voila ici! A fruitful collaboration was born. As a designer, Ton traveled to Milan, Rome, Cannes, Paris, New York and so forth. Little Miss Me was so fortunate to accompany Ton on several business trips even when he had his boyfriend with him. On one occasion he kicked out his then BF to have a "girl's" night of doing our nails and gossiping about celebs he dressed. When I left to the US [and Ton took a break from work] we lost touch.
It was a major but pleasant surprise to hear his voice again. Ton and I chitchat about celebs of course; his BF; and his new line. Then it hit me hard, he told me that he was diagnosed with AIDS and that he feels his sunset it approaching. All I could do was cry. In a previous post I went on and on about Russian Roulette and cheating. Ton always protected himself but when he would be in a steady and committed relationship, then he and his partner would decide [after testing] to have unprotected sex. He tested HIV positive a couple of years ago, after he found out his partner was positive. The disease has progressed and Ton is suffering from co diseases.
He asked me if we could make a trip to Milan again; me, him and Vlindertje. How can I say "no" to his request... I guess I'll be traveling back to Milan in April and maybe celebrate my birthday with Ton, if he can make it. He sounded so vulnerable and weak, so not the Ton I know for years.
This news affects me more then I realized. Ultimately I knew we would lose Ton but I wasn't prepared for it as yet, if I ever could be prepared to lose a close and dear friend. I'm not sure if I'll be able to post a lot the next couple of days.but I'll be around.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Yes or No
I received a second request to publish my manuscripts.. and I'm torn between my emotions and my mind. The main reason that I'm blogging with my alter ego, and hesitating is because I'm shy when it comes an audience pr to be in the spotlight with my deepest emotions. Poetry is my soul's mirror that I sometimes share it with a friend or on this blog, but to open my soul for a broader audience. King encourages me to send my manuscript to the publisher. As a writer himself, he does understand my hesitation.
To Be Continued
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
Mega Blooper
Today I called King and a strange man picked up the phone. I threw me off a bit. That's when I decided to text him a message sharing the incident and some other daily happenings. Since we've been communication so many times, I memorized his numbers and typed it in the message. He responded back with a simple "Hello there to you" and I replied with more personal information and a picture.
I received a happy response back and after that last text, the following message made me want to disappear from the earth
Hey you're texting the wrong number... You're man is lucky; you are the most beautiful woman I've ever seen in my life according to the pictures you've enclosed. If your man ever mistreat you or you become single - please don't hesitate to call me.
OM F***** G.
I don't share much of my most private thoughts here on this blog, but I started to share it with King. I apologized and then realized I had typed one number incorrectly - probably because of my long nails.
Well, Bridget Jones did it again... How humiliating lol. King understood what happened when I explained the issue, however he was not comfortable with the fact that the man now has a private picture of me.
To Be Continued.....
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
Threats of Insanity
Last night GI JOE started to chat with me. I was hoping he moved on from our last conversation and that we could have a normal chit chat. This is a copy of our chat:
GI JOE: yeah so what are you up tooo
GI JOE: at home yet
Angry Asian Cookie: yes
GI JOE: you still haven’t hooked up the web cam for me
Angry Asian Cookie: I don't think that's a wise thing to do at this point GI JOE
Angry Asian Cookie: I'm currently preparing for my salsa class
Angry Asian Cookie: I'm substituting
GI JOE: when do I get a lesson
GI JOE: Im a sex ed teacher, first lesson is free
Angry Asian Cookie: hmm where is this going...
GI JOE: ;)
Angry Asian Cookie: ok
GI JOE: you have no idea what I'm want to do to you
GI JOE: when we meet, I can’t promise you what’s going to happen or what’s not gonna happen
Angry Asian Cookie: really oh so you believe we'll meet... how interesting
Angry Asian Cookie: fascinating
Angry Asian Cookie: I don't think so GI JOE
GI JOE: >:)
Angry Asian Cookie: I probably have to tell you this again, maybe you've missed it the last time we spoke - although I have a though time imagining that but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt.
GI JOE: ok
Angry Asian Cookie: I met a person via a friend from my brother
Angry Asian Cookie: and I like him a lot
GI JOE: ok
GI JOE: so
Angry Asian Cookie: does this ring a bell....
GI JOE: no, I can only remember that I want to marry you
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE ok you need to hear this again and I'll send a copy of this chat to your email. Please read carefully and focus.
Angry Asian Cookie: as I mentioned before never intended to fall in love
Angry Asian Cookie: but I am falling
GI JOE: but
Angry Asian Cookie:I like this individual
GI JOE: so what are you telling me
Angry Asian Cookie: I want to let you know that
Angry Asian Cookie: he's far away
GI JOE: you are telling me this for a reason
Angry Asian Cookie: yes I did that the last time we chatted too. Ok this is what happened. It will help you understand the dynamics - I hope. He came to town a couple of weeks ago
Angry Asian Cookie: and we started to talk
Angry Asian Cookie: nothing physical happened
GI JOE: so why didnt I fall into this category
Angry Asian Cookie: we understand each other
Angry Asian Cookie: ?
Angry Asian Cookie: what do you mean
Angry Asian Cookie: he was here for work
Angry Asian Cookie: and my brothers friend introduced me to him
Angry Asian Cookie: it wasn't planned or anything
GI JOE: so Im out of the picture now
GI JOE: so Im out of the picture now
GI JOE: so Im out of the picture now
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE read and listen first. I want to let you know what's going on and I want you to understand this and accept the facts.
GI JOE: you never answered the question
Angry Asian Cookie: we are talking
Angry Asian Cookie: him and I
GI JOE: but you like him. I never got that far
Angry Asian Cookie: no GI JOE you and I never got that far; we never met. That's why even a relationship is doubtful and marriage with you has never been a reality to me
GI JOE: so our marriage is off?
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE, I never had the intention to marry you as I have stated several times.
GI JOE: Why not
Angry Asian Cookie: for one: I have never met you. I don’t love you, I don’t know you
Angry Asian Cookie: I still don’t understand why you want to marry a person, you've never met or know. Totally we’ve been chatting maybe 8 times.. Now, every individual can tell you that’s no foundation for a relationship and certainly not a marriage.
Angry Asian Cookie: at least not in my world of reality
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE focus
Angry Asian Cookie:I do believe that in all honesty that there was not a realistic edge of reasoning
Angry Asian Cookie: as a person who cares about people in general, I wonder how you expected me to fall in love or marry you without even seen you.
Angry Asian Cookie: marriage cannot be taken lightly. It's not a decision you make from one day to another. As a person who cares about others I just wonder how you could have build such expectations
Angry Asian Cookie: from me to you. I believe you are probably a great person. But allow a woman [in this case not me] to get to know you better. The both of you need to know how you could make a relationship work, you cannot expect that to do after the fact of marriage
Angry Asian Cookie: it’s intriguing how your mind works. Fascinating at minimum.
Angry Asian Cookie: I hope you’ll be ok
Angry Asian Cookie: I hope you'll find what you are looking for.
GI JOE: I’m not going to stand here and watch you fall for another guy
GI JOE: I’m taking my leave and this is unacceptable
Angry Asian Cookie: Accept it and the sooner you will, the sooner your sanity will come back
GI JOE: you cannot marry anyone else
Angry Asian Cookie: Who said anything about marriage? Is there anything in between for you?? Pardon me? I said I won’t marry YOU. And I repeat what I already said before in our conversation last week. I didn’t say I marry someone else. I couldn't do that with no one at this point
GI JOE: you’re not marrying anyone else, I won’t accept it
Angry Asian Cookie: GI JOE get a grip. I'm done being polite and diplomatic. I’m ending this conversation. Face reality my dear and move on. I hope that you’ll talk with someone about this – a health care professional preferable a counselor. My best for you.
GI JOE: this is not over. You can’t end this.
Angry Asian Cookie: Goodbye.
This freaks the h*** out of me. I"m unsure if this is a threat or what I have to think. I know one thing though - I'm not communicating with this person ever again. This is insane.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Friday, March 14, 2008
check this out: a journey to the human body
This is amazing: check this site out. A museum that allows you to take a journey through the human body. The museum's name is "Corpus"
http://www.corpus-experience.nl/index.php?refresh=true
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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It's Official
It's Official... I'm in love. And the best thing is, it's his spirit and soul that completely knocked me off my feet. For the last couple of days we communicated so intense and with so much depth that he makes me quiet - which is a phenomenon. I only want to hear him and him alone. He's a well spring of inspiration for new poetry and I cannot wait to hold his hand again. In the back of my mind, I'm a realist and know that this cloud can come down and that chances are that we might never be a couple. So far I'm still on cloud 9, and I plan to enjoy it. My heart is racing, each time I hear from him. My head is spinning when I drink his words. My soul is yearning for his thoughts. My spirit sings a silent song, only he can hear...my King
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Crazy
A couple of days ago BB and I were @ a mall. And with so much on my mind I was not paying any attention to anyone around me. I was on my way to the car as I took the escalator. An individual passed me on his way down, and asked me without any scruples "Do you want to have sex with me?" With all the disgust I had I screamed "NO"
BB was walking about 100 feet behind me because I don't require for him to tail me too closely. When I continued to walk to my car, I noticed that this same individual was now following me. In a split second BB however intervened - he had heard me say NO too loud. Seriously, what was this man thinking?????? There are too many crazy people walking around on this planet.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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A** Kicking
I have to vent. I'm angry - very much so although this didn't
happen to me but to my closest friend. She and her soon-to-be ex-husband, have a living arrangement until the divorce is final. She's a wonderful personwho - in my humble opinion - has taken his feelings and best interest in full consideration. This week she called and shared that the A** [and mind my wording I'm really upset] brought his NEW girlfriend to THEIR house.
The girlfriend was in THEIR master bedroom... Later on my friend had to get some of her clothes in the master bedroom. She had to ask when this individual would leave for her to have access to her own possessions. Then a couple of days later, her soon to be A** -ex husband informed her that his new lover felt a bit uncomfortable that my friend was in the house.
FOR CRYING OUT LOUD - I CAN KICK HIS @$$
My friend simply want this divorce to be over with and therefor she has all the patience and sanity to deal with his crap. I so admire her - if it was me, I would not only have kicked a** but I would have probably fried his
b****. 
He has no character of integrity, and only think of him and himself only. She's so strong and she has my respect because I would have lost it a long time ago. I'm an Aries - Goddess of War but I do understand her position and circumstances. Showing some love her for my girl....
Hugzzz Dahlings,
angryasiancookie.in.dc@gmail.com
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Caution HOT - Fragile Hearts in Motion Handle with Care!
Three days in a row my King and I had some intense conversations. The closer we get, the more we both realize how much there's at stake.
We're both relieved that we are so far apart and yet we regret we cannot see each other each day. Seat belts on in this roller coaster.. hearts on fire... handle with care .. fragile. ... I wonder how I'll know he is it..
To be continued...
Hugzzz Dahlings,
angryasiancookie.in.dc@gmail.com
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
What A Girl Wants
You say it best when you say nothing at all. No Words Needed.. Girls check this link out!
http://m3.youneed2see.com/piles/?s=whatgirlswant
Huggzzzz Dahlings,
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The Lotus Flower Sermon
I'm not a follower of Budda's teachings however I found this story online and it intrigued me. I admire the peaceful teaching of Budda and this particular Sermon caught my eye thus I'm sharing it with you.
Toward the end of his life, the Buddha took his disciples to a quiet pond for instruction. As they had done so many times before, the Buddha’s followers sat in a small circle around him, and waited for the teaching.
But this time the Buddha had no words. He reached into the muck and pulled up a lotus flower. And he held it silently before them, its roots dripping mud and water
The disciples were greatly confused. Buddha quietly displayed the lotus to each of them. In turn, the disciples did their best to expound upon the meaning of the flower: what it symbollized, and how it fit into the body of Buddha’s teaching.
Lotus flowers are amazing and have strong symbolic ties to many Asian religions especially throughout India. The lotus flower starts as a small flower down at the bottom of a pond in the mud and muck. It slowly grows up towards the waters surface continually moving towards the light. Once it come to the surface of the water the lotus flower begins to blossom and turn into a beautiful flower.
Within Hinduism and Buddhism the lotus flower has become a symbol for awakening to the spiritual reality of life. The meaning varies slightly between the two religions of course but essentially both religious traditions place importance on the lotus flower.
The lotus flower appeared in legends originating from ancient Egypt. It played an important part in ancient Egyptian religion. The pure white lotus flower, the only plant to fruit and flower simultaneously, emerges from the depths of the muddy swamp. Growing from the mud at the bottom of ponds and streams, the exquisite Lotus flower rises above the water and is usually white or pink with 15 or more oval, spreading petals, and a peculiar, flat seedcase at its center.
Egyptology Articles
Herbs Articles
Lotuses are 5 species of water lilies, three in the genus Nymphaea and two in Nelumbo; both genera are members of the water-lily family, Nymphaea lotus, the Egyptian white lotus, is believed to be the original sacred lotus of ancient Egypt. It and the Egyptian blue lotus, N. caerulea, were often pictured in ancient Egyptian art. The common Egyptian "lotus" is actually correctly called a water lily: the white lotus opens at dusk, the blue water lilly opens in the morning.
The white lotus' rounded petals appear with round, scalloped edge leaves. The red lotus was introduced to Egypt from Persia in later dynasties.
Traditional or Historical UsesProvides a relaxing, euphoric sensation. May help relieve muscle spasms. For some, it may act as an aphrodisiac. Egyptian Blue Lotus is a sedative, antispasmodic, and ethnogen.
God of the primeval lotus blossom, who is represented by the blue lotus. His name had the notion of 'perfection'. Nefertem was usually depicted as a man with a lotus-flower headdress, sometimes with the addition of two plumes and two necklace counterpoises, which are symbols of fertility through their connection with Het-Hert (Hathor). Since the sun was believed to have arisen from a lotus, Nefertem was linked with the sun-god, as described in the Pyramid Texts utterance 266 as ‘the lotus blossom which is before the nose of Re’, probably an allusion to the use of this scented flower by guests at banquets and making Nefertum the god of fragrance.
“What can be said I have said to you,” smiled the Buddha, “and what cannot be said, I have given to Mahakashyapa.”
Mahakashyapa became Buddha’s successor from that day forward.
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Monday, March 10, 2008
Cloud 9
Last night I spoke of hours with both my brother [Dr.H.], King and another close friend. I cannot describe how energized I felt during my conversations however I didn't get much sleep at all. This morning, I'm reflecting on the conversations I had regarding: re-relocation [lol]; California, a new career, housing and my developing feelings for King. Goal-orientated as I am, I asked myself the following question: how do you eat an Elephant ? Answer: By bits and pieces.
This morning after so little sleep I still woke up [as usual] with a smile. My heart is racing, my soul is yearning and he continues to take my breath away. I never thought I would ever experience this; I have dreamed about this phenomenon, I read about it; and I imagined that I would once find my soul mate. Never in my wildest dream I expected it to feel like this. We are so incredible compatible and in sync with each others goals; dreams; expectations; desires and souls. I truly feel this is it - he's the One. Did I ever felt like this before? It came close but the flow of the communication I have with King is incomparable; the chemistry is astonishing both ways; the spiritual connection surpasses my imagination.
How are we handling the long distance.. first of all I have my dear friend Mos who has offered to let me stay at her place in CA. I'm trying to build resources for at least a couple of months to cover my relocation and my other expenses. Then when the time is there we MOVE! We''ll still be a two hours away from each other but we can catch a plane easily or do weekends. This way we can maintain the independence we both enjoy and take it from there.
Meanwhile we are both focused on accomplishing our other goals. Regardless how we finish, we both feel we'll be friends for life. He has the most beautiful soul and spirit I've ever encountered outside of my family. Oh meanwhile, if you need me: I'm on Cloud 9 *** Smile ****.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Sunday, March 9, 2008
Substitutes for a boyfriend
Every day I take a run either in a park or when I'm not in the DC Metro Area I try to find the closest beach nearby. The beach and the sea has a calming and soothing effect on me. My dog Hugo enjoys a long run, and he's very playful. He's a little mudd and I adore him. My cat Donovan is the sweetest and funniest cat you can imagine. He knocks on doors with his little paws, he "talks" and answers you when you "talk" to him
- simple adorable. This morning my pets woke me up by just looking at me. When I finally woke up, Donovas started to "talk" and put his paws around my face, soo cute. Then Hugo jumped on my lap and "gave" me his tummy to scratch. Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Renewed Hair Style : Keep the Sleek or Go with the Curls...
ast night I had an appointment with my hairstylist. In fact I wrote some of my posts while he was fixing my hair. A couple of days ago, he trimmed my hair a little bit too much for my taste hence my new appointment to see if we can conduct some emergency damage control. My hairstylist is also a fashion photographer, who sometimes takes my pictures and displays them in his saloon.
Last night I agreed to a new experiment: yes, that's my Aries and Mars in Sagittarius...Since I was 22, I bend my hair to have a more Asian outlook. My hair is naturally more curly.. and I must say I always fought with my hair especially since I wear it long. Last night my hairstylist took a change and blow dried my hair and left it naturally curly.... I feel very awkward with it but hey I can wash it any moment and bend it again to my regular Asian sleek style.
He took a picture because it's a rare moment to see me with curls. I was wondering how you prefer me.. curly or sleek....
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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My Poetry
Those who are close to my heart know I write poetry, and won a couple awards for a few of my poems. Last year I received copyright for my manuscript but I still hesitate to publish my poetry.
The poem, I like to share with you was pre-angryasiancookie blog, and created when I was inspired by my muse.
I hope that you'll enjoy this particular poem, and see the reflection of my soul's mirror...
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Saturday, March 8, 2008
I long to see you smile
So much has happened the last couple of days, and I didn't have the chance to blog about it but here we go.
GI Joe
Remember that I blogged about GI Joe? He and I finally had a chance to talk. I brought him the news that I don't want to marry him because I don't know him; don't love him and never met him. I also shared with him I met an individual that I start to develop feelings for.
I probably shouldn't have shared that last part. My thoughts were that this additional information might help to make GI Joe realize marriage to me is a loss cause. GI Joe started to demand questions why I preferred King as oppose to him [GI Joe]. Then he expressed that he thought it was unfair that he had such a disposition - he's in Iraq and King is here .....in CA. In response I tried to explain the dynamics between King and myself. Wrong stupid Bridget - he started to project it on himself. In my effort not to upset GI Joe too much I offered my platonic friendship, and told him that he probably is a great guy but not for me and I never met him.
A chat with GI Joe is always draining and I really didn't have the time or energy to go into too much details. Lucky for me my laptop crashed again
NoShow
Before I met Lion I was introduced to NoShow. I quickly had assessed NoShow, was a NoShow because every time we tried to schedule a date and he would not show up. In addition I found out he was still married but separated for eighth years but still slept with his wife. When we did met I couldn't overcome his physical appearance; his hygiene; his ghetto background; and his intellectual abilities. He wrote beautiful letters but to be honest I think he had downloaded them somewhere online because in real life his vocabulary didn't match his written skills. To cut a long story short, I wasn't interested. I told him that immediately and I offered a platonic friendship at maximum. He took that too literally and started to call me day and night. After a while he stopped calling but the last couple of days, he started his phone terror again. This time I blocked his number. Personally, I don't understand why a person would stalk another person who obviously made it clear she's not interested in you romantically.
Johns
I met Johns via a mutual friend. He is an older professional, very nice and distinguished, intelligent, but from my side there's no chemistry. We started talking about business and we met several of times with regards to that. He invited me a couple of times for a party and dance. We did have indepth conversation and he's a nice person but I'm falling for King that I made it clear that we can be friends and business partners but that's as far as I want him in my life. He's not accepting this fact. Why is it that men cannot handle a "no" or is it my naievity that men and women cannot be platonic if one has a crush on the other. Of course I have no intention to continue this friendship.
KING
Where do I even start...we have been text messaging, and talking by phone and people - I am falling for King. And I mean really falling and feeling this wonderful man. He has his own interests, hobbies and work but still shows enough interest in my life and is very supportive about whatever I undertake. Of course this works both ways. Our exchange is naughty; deep; sweet; funny and intellectual. We make each other smile, and when he's silent it's ok. I listen to him without he's saying one word. Last night he was excited about my dancing classes, and I was excited about his audition for a movie part. We shared dreams and goals, little and bigger things that have our interest. We had been on our call listening to our music and it was as if he was sitting next to me. Both of us trying to see who can visit who first. And you know what, I long to see him smile; hold his hand and be in his presence in real life again. If I can have one wish related to him and me, this would be my wish.
Gosh how will a long distance relationship work then again, I was already focused on relocation... maybe I should seriously consider CA.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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MENstrual Cramps
We often choose our partners for all the wrong reasons – s/he offers financial security, the sex is great, s/he's romantic - but your relationship is based on the things that actually matter. A soul mate is someone who you can see yourself growing old with, someone who respects and loves you for who you are. You and your partner both kept your individuality, even as you form your identity together. You know that you don't need a man/woman to give meaning to your life because you cherish your friendships and personal hobbies and activities. You understand each other innately and share each other's worldview. Many relationships end in a short time because the lust has fizzled out. But because you have such an intense emotional connection, s/he is always attractive to you, whether s/he's in his/her pajamas, brushing his/her teeth or in a suit and tie. If you continue to challenge each other in conversations and play together in and outside the bedroom *smile* you can physical passion alive
Sounds all great … but how does it work for you in reality…
I thought about the headaches men have given me in the past, and now I think of it…
MENtal anxiety
MENtal breakdown
MENstrual Cramps
MENopause
MENdacious
MENace
MENingitis
Have you ever notice that all of our problems begin with MEN……..????
Hugzzz Dahlings,
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Thursday, March 6, 2008
tick me off
I had no plans to blog about this but the last couple days I randomly encountered some people during my lunch hour; running around; business meetings; via friends who got a bit on my nerves. Usually, I smile and brush it off - I have a pretty joyous nature. But today I when I was with Vlindertje, and I had to address one particular issue with an individual. We were on our way back from the mall and this person addressed me in front of Vlindertje. He complimented me on my legs, and my eyes. Vlindertje and I were both very uncomfortable with his approach In addition he stepped into my personal space, and was obviously drunk [ 6:00 PM EST]. I friendly asked him to step aside and not to speak with me anymore but he ignored me. When he was about to lay his hands on Vlindertje's hair, I had to intervene less diplomatic. I also buzzed BB, who came to the rescue within five minutes.
After this incident, I spoke to my brother and Camy. They understood the urgency especially considering my overall diplomatic and gentle demeanor We started to talk about what would tick us off and by the time I hung up the phone I was laughing with tears in my eyes. Of course I'm sharing our " did I tick you off???" list.
HOW TO TICK ME OFF
1. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper,
99 copies.
2. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sexual favors."
3. Specify that your drive-through order is "TO-GO."
4. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while
talking to me.
5. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.
6. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather
conditions "to keep them tuned up."
7. Reply to everything I say with "that's what you think."
8. Practice making fax and modem noises.
9. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and "cc" them to
me [your boss].
10. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.
11. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with
prophesy."
12. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your
ears and grimacing.
13 Disassemble your pen and "accidentally" flip the ink cartridge
across the room.
14. Holler random numbers while every time I'm counting [ one time is
funny]
15. When I almost about to seat say " Sit dog"
16. When you refer to yourself and yourself only as "we"
17. Adjust the tint on my HD that all the people are green, and tell me
that "everyone else likes it that way"
18. Staple pages in the middle of the page
19. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a croaking noise.
20. Make a certain sound by putting you hand under your arm pit and
and make motions
21. Honk and wave to strangers and scream out the window how lucky
you are that's I'm your date tonight
22. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their
complimentary mints at the cash register.
23. TYPE IN UPPERCASE
24 type only in lowercase, in official letters
25 Don't use any punctuation either in memos
26. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole
streets.
27. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times."DO YOU HEAR
THAT?""What?""Never mind, it's gone now."
28. As much as possible, skip rather than walk in company of my
professional network.
29. Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of
your chin. When nearly done, announce "No, wait, I messed it up,"
and repeat.
30. Ask my mother what gender she is
31. While making presentations, bob your head like a parakeet every 2
minutes
33. Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if
they slow down.
34. Sing along at the opera in presence of my President and my mother.
35. Go to my poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn't rhyme.
36. On our first social event with my co-workers ask my co-workers
mysterious questions and then scribble their answers in a notebook.
37. Mutter something about "psychological profiles"
38. Start dinner while my father is still praying and use your fingers
instead of our silverware.
39. Drop and break my mother's China, and give then comment
that we now have a great excuse to replace our "ugly China" which
actually is handmade china we inherited from my great
grandmother.
40. Ask my mother that you always wanted to know if Asian actually see
less because of the narrowness of our eyes.
What ticks you off?
Hugzzz Dahlings,
angryasiancookie.in.dc@gmail.com
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
The Scent Of a Man
Today I was rushing from one meeting to another while working with three separate schedules and a final relocation on my mind. I try to visit at least one gallery or play per week during my lunch break. It was beautiful outside and decide to walk in downtown DC towards the National Gallery.
I was day dreaming about my relocation; about my baby girl's audition for Hannah Montana; and King when I older man passed me by. I caught a breeze of his scent and it reminded me of my first boyfriend; how odd..
A scent of a man is very important to me. I'm not referring to his aftershave or cologne but his natural scent. When we disregard what our noses tell us, we can find ourselves mired in partnerships that breed sexual discontent, infertility, and even—in extreme cases—unhealthy offspring. And if you had good memories of a man who's aftershave was "Ralph Lauren", the next time chances are that if you meet a man at a party who's wearing the stuff, your nose will tell you to get closer to this individual. Culture and conditioning play an important part in how we perceive odors.
For example, while most people enjoy the scents of both pizza and roses, few would be interested in a cologne that smells like a pepperoni pie. Perfumes contain scents from blooms, and not bakeries because flowers are symbols for life, fertility and romance in most cultures. People's response to perfume is more than just conditioning. There are some odors such as the rich scent of roses or the sweet smell of ripe apples, that we naturally enjoy because of our genetic heritage.
I read a research article from a professor in Chemistry at IU. When humans were evolving millions of years ago, those that were attracted to the lush scents of flowers and ripe fruit got a better diet and therefore had more and healthier children than those proto-humans whose malfunctioning sniffers led them to eat hard, unripe fruits or rotting meat; yikes.
In one particular case I'd met a men via a business acquaintance.She convinced me he had commodities with my interest, he was handsome, educated and caring. After about three months I finally gave in, and agreed to meet this individual for lunch. When I'm unable to project the outcome of a blind date, I prefer a lunch date as oppose to a dinner date; it gives you the opportunity to have a conversation but also a reason to politely warp up, and get back to work when expectations aren't met.
When this individual walked towards me, and asked if I was Angry Asian Cookie, I noticed he was polished, and nicely groomed. However, he was carring a body odor around himself that forced me [during the course of our conversation and lunch] to be excused three times to visit the ladies room. The scent of this individual had made me lose my appetite, and in my mind I knew I had already made a decision about where I would go with this particular date.
A few days ago my dating site sent me a profile of a man who was very specific about his expectations and I quote:
I like a woman who has a pleasant scent, and is clean both up and down..if you know what I mean.
I thought it was so funny he expressed that in such manner, but I cannot blame him hygiene is a very important selection tool and according to research at least as important if not the most important factor if selecting a partner.
Hugzzz Dahlings,
angryasiancookie.in.dc@gmail.com
