For the last couple of weeks I have neglecting my blog simply because I'm swamped by work, and social networking. A lot has happened.but most significant is that my best friend has admitted to have a major crush on me for awhile; King and and I growing and closer to each other; Fitness Guru - who I have been advising on his career adventures - has expressed to have a "distinctive plan" after a negative interview outcome; King and Tyrese are not on speaking terms.; I discovered schickdreamsdate a site I think everyone should visit.
So where to start:
My best friend and I
Have you seen my best friends wedding and Made of Honor ? well, I should have auditioned for it. *sigh*
My best friend and I go along way; he and I are very comfortable together -that is I would change clothes in front of him; I tell him about my dates; my crushes; we gossip together and so forth. He's a girlfriend in a men's body and I'm totally not attracted to him. In fact I never considered him a sexual being - isn't that a terrible thing??!!! Now check this out: last week we were chillin' and King called. King and I were fooling around on the phone - just having a blast. And my best bud's face was getting darker and darker. I told King that I had to hang up to chill with my best bud. I sat down and ask him : Bud - what's going on - you know you cannot hide anything from me. Your face speaks for itself. So make a confession, let me listen to what's up and we figure it out together how to eat this elephant!
Well, my jaw dropped when he started to stutter and telling me that he had been crushing on me since we met.
Bud: Angry Asian Cookie I don't know how this is effecting our friendship but I can't go through with this anymore.
Angry Asian Cookie: Go through with what? can you be more specific?
Bud: Angry Asian Cookie we both are close and our friendship is amazing but I have grown to love you.
Angry Asian Cookie: Of course Silly I love you too... You know that.. You don't have to worry about that!!
Bud: Angry Asian Cookie you're not hearing me; I'm in love with you. I want to kiss you, hold you and make love to you.
I want King to go elf himself and have you for myself. I want you to look at me as a partner and not as a buddy. I fantasize of us and you. And I have been keeping this to myself because I don't want to jeopardize our friendship. On the same note it's tearing me apart to see you in love with King. And I can't handle it anymore.
Angry Asian Cookie: " Oh" ...... Bud I had no idea... I mean .. But you... How... Hmmm well... uh,... OMG... what do you want me to say?
Bud and I parted that evening. We still hang out, we still text and call but everything has changed. I don't feel comfy anymore undressing while chatting with him. I don't share my King stories to the extend that it might hurt Bud. And I try to avoid any physical contact. Unfortunately, it did change our friendship because I don't want to hurt his feelings more then I probably unintentionally did. I regret not seeing this coming. I would have been more sensitive and cautious.
The Closer I get to you...
Despite some of my blogger friends and other readers predicted I'm still very much in luv with King. We are communicating more intrinsic and we are growing closer and closer. He is a bit impatient and I can't blame him. We are scheduled to see each other next month. I keep teasing him on the phone just to hear him laugh, act silly [which is not that hard since I'm Bridget Jones' twin sister] The time differences are creating huge sacks under my eyes but the last thing I want to hear when I fall asleep is his voice. He's becoming my heart's joy. Each day seems so fabulous - and every time he calls my hearts skips a beat and I produce this silly grin on my face. Yep, she's still very much in love!
Fitness Guru career adventures
Fitness Guru and I have been chatting mostly about clubbing and his career advancement. Fitness Guru is on a mission; he wants to get married and for that he believes clubbing is instrumental. Where Fitness Guru is located - according to him - is not much to do. Hand in hand with finding Bridezilla, goes his career advancement. With his current employer he has reach his ceiling and he wants to buy a house; fix his car; buy a ring; pay for the wedding with the unidentified Bridezilla; and date. Now dating is expensive according to him. He expressed his growing frustration when he was up in my area took me out for dinner and I had decided that he and I were no match but, I had indicated that staying friends would great. Fitness Guru mentioned that he didn't want to hear about my friends and I had no clue how much effort and money it had cost him to get to DC and take me out for dinner without accomplishments the projected results : a relationship with me.... I offered to assist Fitness Guru with finding his dream job. To me this means planning a strategy and target your efforts instead of ineffective applying for jobs. Fitness Guru obtained a BS in marketing but after assessing his knowledge, and experience I doubted if he would be able to step into even an entry level position in that area. If you are not even remotely aware of the main principles of marketing, write your own cover letter. resume I doubt if you can step up to the plate of positions that would generate the type of income he has projected. Secondly, his most solid experience is in Fitness. His knowledge of budgeting, strategic planning et cetera is not even on an average level. I advised him to either gain more knowledge by taking some course work or focusing on his experience and strength. He felt somewhat offended when I asked him more specifically how he would do his job search, net working and so on. He told me he had a plan but couldn't talk about it by chat, because I typed to fast. When we finally got on the phone, I asked him again, so tell me what's your plan and maybe I can give you some suggestions or feedback. His plan was to search for jobs.........Well, we already had establish that.. sounds like a great plan..... Back to the clubbing; I go out in DC and hit some of the clubs around M and K, or U street. Park; Josephine's; Fly; to name a few. Fitness Guru suggested if he could hang out with me and my friends, to find Bridezilla. I was carefully letting him know that going out in DC with my friends is not the cheapest way of clubbing and gave him a head up of what my normal expenses are when I go out. He got really upset and then cut me of chat. Fitness Guru to me is too much obsessed with finding a bride; very anal behavior - instead of just having fun, let life happen, be happy with yourself and then you might attract some great women who are interested in you for you. Spending money you don't have is not the most attractive asset a man can offer. If I were him I would hit the gym and do what I would do best and attract a lovely young lady there. Or maybe go out for dinner in an all you can eat buffet ; something that's affordable for you....Does that makes sense???!!!
Tyrese and King
King and Ty have some sort of a beef going on, and it's a pity that childish behavior or insecurities have such an impact on people. King thought is was kinda cute how I had this thing going on for Tyrese. It was more focused on his music and inspirational side of his personality as oppose to his romantic side of his personality. But I started to hold back in general after deciding to focus on King. King apparently is more sensitive for my interaction with Ty then I suspected. When we spoke about King's new movie project I wondered if he would included Ty in it for one of the characters. His response was - no chance in hell. Oopse...after explaining his reasons why, I understood his point of view. I guess what King told me was not news to me; but not so much on the surface for outsiders. In my opinion certain display of behavior is childish and not very attractive. then again. it has nothing to do with me. !!! It has been quite a week, King is chillin with friends and planning his trip to see me, and I'm still working hard on moving to CA. More about those developments later.
