To all my readers,
My apologies, I neglected my blog and there's no excuse. My life has been a roller coaster. I've been involved with the development of a great new magazine with focus on improvement of love, sex and relationships, In addition, I had to make some though decisions both professionally and personally. But I'm back to share with you some of what's been going on.
First things first, King, DD and Persian and I are still friends but after my best buddy and I started to date I realized how foolish I've been. He was there all the time, right before my eyes and I never considered dating him. It was confusing and awkward in the beginning thusly I had my guards up of course. A best friend doesn't equal a great partner. Hence my absence on my blog, because I felt it would be unfair for Bud to post about my experiences.
We are still exploring the opportunities, very cautious and open. He's the best thing ever happened to me. We always connected tremendously but since we started dating, we seem to connect even better. Our pillow talk takes hours and hours - each day. And every time we both regret ending our conversation to actually go to bed. As we spend more and more time together, we realize how special it is to have your best friend as a potential partner.
I'm afraid - yes you read it well - afraid to lose my heart. It's almost too perfect that I try to find reasons and insecurities not to engage or pursue this relationship. The last week I have nightmares about his wedding, after watching my best friend's wedding. What if I don't open up? What if he got what he wanted and I'm a ship passing through the night? He's the most beautiful person on the inside and out I've ever met. We're soul mates. I discovered that our heart's beat at the same rhythm. We think of each other and than call each other at the same time. And we always done that, but now I see it
Well, time will tell. I loved this man before we started dating and now we are dating I'm afraid to love him more....
Life is such a bitch
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